I had blog before this one but I felt trapped with what could write. I had boxed myself in which made writing a pain. Therefore I started this blog to free myself of any parameters. It felt like a reboot.
Seven years ago was a huge turning point in my life. I was going through a quarter-life crisis. (Fun Fact: that was going to be the name of the blog). I was unhappy living in DC, stuck career-wise, single and in general-failing at life. I didn't detail it very well in that (linked) blog post but I let that job decided my fate. I was packing up to return to California as a failure until I got my awesome job at a museum.
That year I also decided to start counseling.
As I said I was failing at life. My thought process was off. I was always a anxious person but it seemed to blossom into something worse. I didn't like the person I was. I don't know if I was depressed but things were fucked up. I have briefly touched on my anxiety in this blog but I'm afraid I glossed over it as no big deal. But it was a big deal. Actually I would not be who I am today without going. I went for 2.5 years straight then after a year break I went back for six months. Yes, it was that serious. It still is.
I have learned how to handle my anxiety better. Of course there are options like medicine and medical marijuana both of which are tempting but neither are a "good look" for a teacher. So I try holistic options and coping mechanisms. I still have battles. My recent car accident was tough. On the outside I told everyone I was fine. I played it cool but on the inside I was completely freaking out. I mentally struggled for what I thought was a couple of days (my husband tells me it was more like a week). Truth be told some days I still struggle.
Speaking of my husband. December 2007 was when we went from being friends to dating. One day soon I'll post our love story but the very short version is, we were neighbors. We bonded over dogs and late night discussions. He had a huge crush on me but I was obviously going through a huge transition. He was extremely patient with me and it just blossomed. Seven years later and I'm so thankful.
I'm thankful that 2006 was the worse year of my life because I needed it. I needed to learn my lessons the hard way. I needed to change the direction of my life. The payoff was
I'm glad I have this blog to see the changes and (of course) to entertain you. I hope you all learn something as well and maybe laugh a little. Thank you for your comments public and private.
PS. Sorry this was so link heavy. If you're a newer reader you might have missed the early stories.